There was a time in my life where I felt hopeless, without answers, and without anyone else to turn to. 

 

Over a period of many years, I found myself struggling with debilitating Anxiety, OCD, and what I discovered later to be Chronic Epstein Barr Virus. With each of my pregnancies, things got worse. Leaving the house, making decisions, and even performing daily tasks became nearly impossible. I wasn't able to enjoy the simple things like spending time with my family, the outdoors, playing soccer, music... I really disconnected from everything I loved and spent most of my time frozen in fear. After struggling for years, I became so fatigued from Chronic Epstein Barr and recurring Mono that it became extremely difficult on most days to walk up the stairs or even unlock the deadbolt to go outside. The already ridiculous expectations I had set for myself were far from being met. I felt ashamed and that I was so far beyond failing.

 

I saw countless practitioners, doctors, and various specialists. I spent thousands of dollars to find that they had no answers for me. I was just told to take more medication and see a therapist. I tried all of it. I tried medication, therapy, hormone doctors, psychiatry, and genetic testing. Some of these things were helpful in their own way, but they did not solve the root problem... and were extremely expensive. I knew I was missing something. 

 

Finding the right support and treatment felt frustrating and hopeless. After wading through years of doctors, blood tests, diagnoses and treatments, I slowly began to find the answers I was searching for. There were many times when I wished I had someone who knew exactly how I was feeling and how I could get better. 

 

Eventually I did find the right support from amazing, empathetic, determined professionals who walked with me on this path of healing and who knew I could be healthy again even 

when I no longer believed it myself.

 

The biggest thing that I realized through everything was that my health is a complex web of interconnecting issues. My physical health affected my mental health, which took a toll on my relationships, which caused more stress and anxiety. Only when I started to treat them all together did I see improvement. I realized that my organs and adrenal glands were so full of junk and toxins that it was causing my mental health to suffer. This was the reason that I couldn't just "snap out of it" or "think more positive". There was a very real problem that ended up having a clear answer.